Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Okay, so just finished watching the Biggest Loser episode 3 of this season and Bob was telling one of the ladies that she needs to be selfish. If she truly loves her children, it was time to stop letting herself go because of them and be selfish because of them. I truly love my children, and I want to do what's best for them, so I've decided to start being a little selfish. I'm going to have to demand some time for myself each day to work on ME. Due to some recent medical issues/changes which I'm not at liberty (i.e. not willing) to discuss just yet, I have to take it easy somewhat, but I will continue to walk each day with or without my girls, I will continue to try to push myself to run a little longer and a little harder each day until I am physically unable to. I will continue to try to eat healthy (not counting calories) just eating less and moving more (Thanks Dawne for allowing me to apply your philosophy to my own life and for inspiring me). Until I receive further word from the Doctor tomorrow, i have no clue where this journey is going to take me. I'm just putting it all in the Lord's hands and praying for HIS guidance AND protection during this time. This is the hardest part for me, because I so often want to do things in my strength, but if I've learned anything over the past few months and experiences, it's that the Lord's will is much stronger than mine. Sometimes the Lord has to BREAK our will in order for HIS will to be done. Please pray for me, you don't have to know the situation, God knows the intentions of the heart. Thank you all who read, thank you for your continued support and encouragement, you truly are a blessing to me. I'm not giving up, I will succeed...it might take a lot longer than I originally intended, but as I said earlier, God's ways are definitely not OUR ways. Hopefully I can post tomorrow with more details, but until then, I'm lifting my prayers to the Lord that HIS will be done in my life.